5 lessons I learned in 2019
This is becoming an annual tradition, it seems. Each year’s challenges ooze from my pores, screaming to get out of me and onto the page by year's end. So without further adieu, here’s my 2019 boiled down into 5 lessons learned. Number One: God is so good!
Okay, I didn’t just learn that. Of course, I’ve known that forever! But He just keeps showing up everywhere I turn. He just keeps sending me messages of love and confirmation in the exact right moments that I need them. He just keeps reminding me that NO weapon formed against me shall prosper. I know this is vague, but if I get specific, then I’ll have to “get specific!” And, that’s not my place. Those situations are for the Lord to deal with, so I leave them in His capable hands. Number Two: I am not God!
I’m not in control of anything or anybody. I am no one’s savior. Of course we all know this about ourselves, but sometimes we fall into that bottomless pit called “people-pleasing.” It is not my responsibility to meet other people’s unrealistic expectations. It’s not my job to fill anyone’s voids. I can’t make everyone happy. And, I can’t fix everything. I appreciate that some people think so highly of me that they place their very happiness in my tiny little hands. I’m deeply honored that some people think my shoulders are so big that they can carry the burden of their misery. But their happiness, as well as their misery, are not my responsibility. I’m just one person, a mere human. And the lesson they must learn, as well, is they need to go directly to the almighty God for their supply of whatever it is that they’re missing internally, as well as externally. Number Three: The truth ALWAYS comes to light!
Sometimes that light rises slowly like the sun on a beautiful spring morning. And at other times, that light blinds you like a laser pointed directly at your pupils. Either way, when that light emerges, the clarity can be received in multiple ways. For me, it has been a comfort and a relief. Boy did I need both! However, with that relief also comes grief. The confusion of darkness is gone, but sometimes ignorance is bliss. What you don’t know won’t hurt you. But it’s better to see things for what they really are so that we don’t waste more of our limited existence on impossible situations. Number Four: I’m a middle-aged grandma with just a few years to go before social security!
I’ve lived a long time, and there’s so much living I have yet to do! So what does this mean? I no longer have the luxury of putting off until tomorrow what I should’ve been doing my whole life. And that is living every day to the fullest. I’ve made it a lifetime habit to consider the feelings of others above my own. The overall reward has been great because I have received a hundredfold of all that I’ve given of myself. However, there’s a part of me that cannot define herself apart from those I love. And so, as I embark on this new decade, I won’t necessarily put myself first because I have no clue how to do that. But for my own survival, I’ll definitely stop putting myself at the bottom of my own list. Number Five: Find the joy, because it’s there!
We often spend more time focused on what’s wrong than on what’s right. Somewhere along the way, I thought everything needed to be perfect in order for me to be happy. I was under the false impression that people’s opinions of me mattered. The Lord reminded me constantly that they do not matter. His will is the only will that I need to follow. It is His will that has led me all the way from where I came to where I am today. And, He reminds me daily that I’ve come a long long way. Praise God!
SN: If you detect a little snark between these lines, it's because I still have some pain and grief that I'm working through. Injuries don't heal just because you will them to. But, it's important that we make progress throughout the process, as we forgive ourselves along the way. At the end of the day, I'm on my way. How about you? What did 2019 teach you?
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